Stars - Calendar Girl

" If I am lost for a day try to find me
But if I don't come back then I won't look behind me
And all of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day

I dreamed I was dying as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there please don't let me die

But I can't live forever I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by the sea
The pages keep turning, I mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost "

Depression.

Just read an article on Depression and am thinking to myself that it has always been there. No matter how much I appear on the outside - always sleeping, aggressive, constantly skipping classes, bubbly or whatsoever, there's always another side of me.

You know how they say some people are two-faced. They can be two-faced because a moment they're like best friends, then another moment they turned their backs against each other and start gossipping to others about what-nots. But then the better type of two-faced people are ones where they appear all bubbly and cheerful on the outside who seems to have the best of everything in life, yet the inside of them is all empty. Most of the time this is just like me. The me you know at school and the me you know at home is totally different.

But anyways, one of the medical problems that could lead to Depression as mentioned in the article is anaemia. I have anaemia - lack of blood in the body system. I can't sit for too long in an overly enclosed area eg. an average small sized car. I constantly feel sick in the stomach. That is also why I don' see myself driving a car if I'm gonna get sick all the time. Public transport is the best:) I have no problem getting on a cruise, but the minute it starts the engine and moves, I get really sick in the stomach too. Almost every second time when I stand up from being seated too long, I get all giddy and have this split second of black-out in my head. I think it was worse during the Primary School days, causing me to faint in school a couple of times due to the heat and overcrowded population in the school hall.

In the article, it was also mentioned that Depression could be caused from certain personality traits eg. being a worrier ☑ or perfectionist ☑, negative ☑ or self-critical ☑. Hmmn, isn't that bad? I actually get rather paranoid at times. I constantly think to myself, did I turn off the stove? Did I shut the windows? Have I done this? Did I bring that? This actually causes me to make several trips back home just to check all these things. But looking on the bright side, checking on things constantly is good sometimes because I'm one of those person who never loses her wallet/smart-rider/student card/mobile phone etc. I would constantly check on them now and again. Being a perfectionist is an annoyance to some people at times, so it gets bad in a group project when you want it all perfect and someone else wants to do it another way. The best job I should get in a group project is doing all the data and aligning crap. I excel in it. That's prolly the only thing I excel in academically.

Symptoms of Depression: mood swings, irritability, frustration, loss of interest in life, sleeplessness, alcohol or drug misuse, staying home a lot, poor physical health, an inability to take criticism. Kenneth said I had most of them:/ Die.

Oh and one thing. The issue about me getting skinnier. Well compared to Uni Year 1 Sem 1, that is very true, but then when you compare to when I first came to Perth 5.5 years ago, I'm just getting back to where I was before. It was just super unfortunate that when I meet most of my Uni friends, I was utterly fat. And now, I'm just back to where I was before. But then well, true sometimes that I don't eat. But I wake up at 2pm, by then brekkie time is over. Lunch time? I could eat noodles or whatever, or I could start to think what to cook for an early dinner. You can call me lazy, but then put yourself in my shoes and see what you would do.

I do the grocery shopping, the thinking of what to cook (which is tedious for all who have never experienced that before), the cooking, the washing. I do all the work. I'm not a robot, I'm just like any of you who has 24 hours a day, who spends half her time sleeping, and has lots more to do compared to you guys, and I admit, I'm slow at learning. So I need much more time than anyone else who is doing the same work. I wash laundry half by hand since the washing machine is so useless it doesn't drain. I've got all these things to worry and stress over with, and of course, I'm surviving on a long distance relationship which involves lots of commitment (and quarrels which gets me all upset when the whole Depression thing kicks in).

So all in all, cut me some slack alrights? Don't judge me when you don't get the facts right. Backstabbing people may sound fun, but what goes around comes around.

*Listening to me when I want to talk and simply spending time with me showing that you care was all I ever needed.

This has got to be the dumbest robber. Ever.

Read this and you'll know why.



A robber like you is a total disgrace to all robbers in the World. Seriously.

Who on Earth robs the bank and sends emails to the Police?

You tell them they got your age, height and accent WRONG?

Have you made up your mind if you want to get caught or not?

And how could you be surprised when they actually found you?

It's a pity they didn't report how much money was stolen. Because I would like to know if you actually went to the poorest bank in town.

1 good reason why it's good to stay at my house.

Ok, let me go off topic for a moment first. Saw this really really really cute doggie at Tea Fusion that other day, and I totally went AWW! IF you're wondering why it is on the table, well cause, when it was left on the ground, it kept coming towards me wagging its tail and doing all the cute stuff doggies do.. It was really furry and it just looked like some great companion for Winter, you know, furry. Hehe:P And yea, the owner(s) then thought it wasn't nice to leave it on the ground, so :(




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So anyways, back to my topic.

Put aside the obvious reason "OMG you live so far awayyyyyyyyyyyy", you guys know that the Lakeside Joondalup shops are massive. It has just about everything you need (or maybe everything I need?), except for Valleygirl/TEMT (I don't quite understand why they still don't have it) and David Jones/Myers (as if you people shop in there everyday==). So yea, groceries are good to do. Often you can check out cheap bargains like I do.. And well, the good reason to stay at my house, is because, you'll never run out of anything.

You know I could really turn my house into some convenience store. I can sell:

- stationeries (was just thinking to myself how I've got 1 more year of Uni to go, and the amount of stationeries I've got eg. pens, pencils, pencil leads, erasers, rulers, highlighters, white-out, liquid paper, A4 paper, sticky notes, notepads, glue sticks(?)), can last a student's lifetime of education! LOLS!

- clothes / bags/ shoes (well needless to say, many of you have witnessed the range of them!:P)

- FOOOOOOOOOOD:) Yes, food. I prolly don't need to emphasise too much on that either, and this is why so..

My fridge is almost always FULL!

P.S. Just when you're gonna complain about the amount of popsicle sticks in the freezer, it's because it was half priced, AND I bought only TWO boxes, my housemate bought THREE. So yea, it wasn't all mine. But it sure took up more than half of the freezer's space. I think we need a new fridge.

And to compensate for it, look at the amount of green veggies we have in the fridge! And carrots and eggs and milk and mushroom, all HEALTHY FOOD alrights?!

For other items other than the ones listed above, it is prolly best for you to come to my house and take a look yourself. Or, you could see it as an/a excuse reason for you to come all the way;)

I'm blue da ba dee da ba die...

I saw this really cute little car that day and it's light blue somemore! So I decided to stop and take a picture of it. Oh and did I mention this is why I missed the train, on a weekend somemore? So I had to sit at the station and wait for the next train which was like a bigillion minutes away== That's why I got bored and started taking the above pictures which consist of blue things. Pink colour lovers are seriously not good friends with the blue.

But then again, ain't it CUTE?

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Speaking of colours...

Nobody likes the yellow.. Starburst lollies*..

And that includes, ME.

*It applies to my family anyways, which explains the leftovers.

Love The Way You Lie (rap lyrics changed)

Stumbled upon this song and thought the changed rap lyrics are more meaningful.
This is the exact situation that's happening to both of us right now..

LYRICS

CHORUS
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

VERSE ONE
I've been tryna figure out a way of what I wanna say
But everytime I'm about to say it, my pride just gets in the way

But tonight that ain't the case, I came to say what I wanna say
My mind can think whatever, I promise I won't obey

I've been fighting through the stress, tryna get if off my chest
But I guess, you're the only who truly knows me best

And we fighting every other day, but now it's nothing new
It's another typical day of the life of me and you

Some things you just can't fix, that's the way it gotta be
So I put the blame on you, then you bring it back on me

Don't you see that we throwing these problems up in a circle?
And if we continue with it, our love will never go further

It's the truth babygirl, don't act like you don't know
Everybody else does, we easily let it show

We holding on to something that we know will never last
So maybe we should call it quits and just leave it in the past, what you think...

CHORUS
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie I love the way you lie

VERSE TWO
Been here for a while, feels like I'm stuck now
This is the reason why I didn't wanna settle down

I know I love you, but love is so complicated
And now we're both debating on something that love created

But it's so hard when you fall in love at such an early age
Different girl, same story, you're just scared to turn the page

So I break into a rage, fresh up outta the cage
I can't even look at you, I got nothing else to say

You begging me to speak for at least 5 minutes
40 minutes go by and we still ain't even finished

What the hell do I do? To finally prove to you
That there ain't another man that will love you like I do

You say you found another; I say I found one too
But we both know deep inside that's not really true

It's only me and you, and nothing will come between us
So if it's really love, I just hope we really mean it

CHORUS
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie I love the way you lie

VERSE THREE
I try to hold in my tears, but I cannot do it
I know you ain't worth it, but I am about to lose it

Wait, what am I saying?! Cause baby you are worth it
And people call us crazy but we like to call it perfect

One second I wanna kiss you, the other, I wanna hit you
Lying, cheating, fighting, what couple don't got issues?

I'm about to snap, and like magnets we attract
But no matter how bad, we just keep on coming back

I promise that I've changed,
I promise I'm not the same
I can promise this and that,
But I know that I'll never change

I can't get away, I'm addicted to the pain
You always made sure, I'll never fall in love again

You're the pieces to my puzzle, you complete me so it seems
It was never my intention to smother you in my needs

The moral of the story is, I hope you understand
There ain't another man that will love you like I can

CHORUS
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie I love the way you lie

Vampires Suck

*edited 14/08 1am* My brother has just downloaded the movie for me! Wee!~ Am so excited to watch it, after I get my truckload of stuff done first!:(

For those Twilight fans out there, given that the movie series is a big hit, it's no surprise that a comedy parody is made out of it (I'm a neutral fan of Twilight).

So here it is...
Proudly presenting you with...
*drumrolls*...

...Vampires Suck


Hilarious quotes:
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Becca Crane: [from trailer] Jacob, why did you just take off your shirt?
Jacob: [Holds up employment contract] My contract says I have to every ten minutes of screen time.

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Becca Crane: [from trailer] Jacob, run!
[Jacob jumps above Becca and lands in his chihuahua form. Becca disbelievingly]
Becca Crane: A chihuahua?

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Becca Crane: [from trailer] Edward!
Team Edward: Edward? Where?
[sees Edward glittering in the sun]
Team Edward: Edward, we love you. You're the best.
Team Jacob: No, Jacob's the best!
[smacks Team Edward's face with a shovel]

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I wanna watch it now, it's so damn hilarious...

"...because if initially you had asked me, today's scenario would have all been different.

you were here all along with me, showering me with lots of care, whilst his heart was constantly away. chatting with you never felt so comfortable before.

if only..."

14 differences between Japanese & Chinese women

Japanese women VS Chinese women
(A little mean, but truth always hurts.)

1.

Japanese women often teach their children to bravely fight the forces of evil, and even if they lose, it is still infinitely glorious, the highest honor.

Chinese women often teach their children that when they encounter the forces of evil they must be good at hiding/running away/avoiding. They say that God will punish them [the forces of evil].

2.

Japanese women believe Japan is the world’s greatest country.

Chinese women usually believe that the moon may be rounder abroad [“the grass is greener”].

3.

Japanese women usually believe marrying foreigners is a kind of disgrace.

Chinese women usually feel that marrying foreigners is a kind of infinite glory.

4.

Japanese women are normally lady-like, but dirty in bed.

Many Chinese women are lady-like in bed, but dirty out of bed.

5.

Most Japanese women abide by the rules of a woman, supporting her husband, raising her children, dutifully.

China is the world’s number one country for one-night stands and extramarital affairs.

6.

Japanese women are almost all very filial, seeing their mother-in-law as their own mother.

Most Chinese women are all too eager for their mother-in-law to quickly die.

7.

Japanese wives treat their husbands with encouragement and concern. Returning home late at night exhausted at the end of a day, the wife will say “you’ve had a tough day.”

Chinese wives treat their husbands with complaints and scolding. Returning home late at night exhausted at the end of a day, the wife will roar “where the hell did you go this time?”

8.

Most young Japanese girls will find a man who is around their age to marry, and make a life with him together.

Young Chinese girls always find a wealthy “old” man, and don’t mind even being his Nth mistress/wife.

9.

Japanese mothers teach their daughters to look after their husbands, and diligently be filial to her parents-in-law.


Chinese mothers teach their daughters that they must keep firm control of all the man’s assets.

10.

Japanese women can tolerate men without money [poor men], but definitely cannot tolerate cowardly and weak men.

Chinese women can tolerate cowardly and weak men, but definitely cannot tolerate men without money.

11.

Japanese women see manly men as the most charming men.

Chinese women see manly men as male chauvinists.

12.

Most Japanese women are very lenient towards men’s infidelity.

Most Chinese women are very lenient towards their own infidelity.

13.

Japanese women almost never say bad things about Japanese men in public or in the media.

Chinese women always loudly curse and mock Chinese men on various media.

14.

The first words of Japanese women on their wedding night is: “If I do not look after/service you well tonight, please be forgiving.”

The first words of Chinese women on their wedding night is: “Hurry and see how much money was received today.”


LOLS.

Typical materialistic women?!

MUST WATCH!!!

How dirty is your mind?

HOW FAST CAN YOU GUESS THESE WORDS?

1. F_ _K

2. PU_S_

3. S_X

4. P_N_S

5. BOO_S

6. _ _NDOM

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Ready for the answers?

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Answers:
1. FORK
2. PULSE
3. SIX
4. PANTS
5. BOOKS
6. RANDOM

You got it all wrong, didn’t you?

LOLS.