ARGH!!! My mobile was dropped on the ground!!!

Worse still, it was on a brick ground!!! SIGH:( After 6 months of 'preservation', though there's a bit scratches here and there, but not to the extent of having a chunk of the corner of the phone 'bitten off'!!! *shrug* SAD:( But I'll get over that as time goes by...

*P.S. I didn't drop it purposely!!! I was pulling out my scarf from my bag, not realising that the phone was sorta on it, thus I sorta flunked it out:(

Anways, woke up at 8am and went to Uni, supposingly to study for the Maths Test on Wednesday:) Hadn't study much of course, since my laptop was always my TOP DISTRACTION!!! But probably FOOD as second=) Jorine brought these English and Chinese carrot cake, they were HEAPS YUMMY=) And at around 4 plus, Jorine and I walked to Broadway and got these Fish & Chips to bring back to the library to eat... But cause the shop only opens at 5pm, so by the time we got back to Uni, it was already 5.40pm... So then we had to finish them up quickly without being noticed!!! (P.S. The aroma of the Fish & Chips spreads fast, ok!!!) In the end, after the second bell had rang, the librarian sorta walked in and asked us to get out soon, and the Fish & Chips was sitting right open on the table!!! Geez, that moment was hilarious:P

Had an overall JOYFUL day EATING HEAPS OF JUNK FOOD and getting NO WORK done!!! Hmmn...

MO ESSAY

Geez... Feeling so tired!!! Finally handed in my MO ESSAY!!!

Spent like so freaking forever on it, just purely cause I couldn't get started, even though the topic question is super straightforward!!! The question was : "Describe and compare the behavioural and contemporary management perspectives”. Do you think that the behavioural perspectives still have much to offer the contemporary manager in the modern organisation? Provide reasons for your standpoint." And all I had to do is write a 2500 words essay on it... How easy was that??? And yet I couldn't even do it, together with the worst thing was that I had help from many people:(

Anyways, I started at like 9pm on thursday night to do it, all the way til 2am, when I got so tired, and went to take a nap, but suddenly woke up at 3.30am and realised that I was only half-way through, and so not done yet, so then had to start doing it til around 8.30am on friday morning!!! I don't think I was ever this hardworking before!!! SIGH... In total, I drank 3 cups of coffee to hopefully keep me awake, and normally a cup of coffee will not allow me to sleep for 2 nights, so does that mean that 3 cups of coffee will keep me awake for 6 consecutive nights then??? >.<

Despite the fact that so much time was spent on the essay, I still didn't managed to get it done... There was still a lack of 200 words when I handed it to Tiffany around 10am, and although she said she was gonna finish it up for me, I guess she didn't have time to do it, considering she had assignments for all of her 4 units due that day... It's just that I remember telling her that if something does crops up, she must tell me, so if she can't do it, I will have to find a way to do it, or even skip my tute for a later one. So in the end the essay got handed in below the 10% limit of 2500 words, and Brianna(my tutor) had already warned us before that if it's below the limit, that's the end of it... So I guess 10% of my final marks will be deducted:( SIGH... I guess I have no one but myself to blame for not getting started earlier:( Sob sob:(

But I guess enough of the sad sad stuff:( There's a whole heap of people I gotta thank, so a really big THANK YOU to the people who have helped me out heaps throughout the process of completing my essay, regardless of 精神上的鼓励, or actual helping me get started with my essay:) By right, you should know who you are, but I'm also sorry if I missed out anyone (Just remind me when you see me!!!), but people who have helped me are as follows:

~ Angie (thanks for letting me know that there's also someone else that was on the same boat as me!!!)

~ Chase (thanks for all the information on behavioural management perspectives=))

~ Eugene (thanks for all the encouragement to get started=))

~ Felicia (thanks for the articles and help:P)

~ Hugo (thanks for the references:P)

~ Jing (thanks for letting me know that Chase is doing management!!!)

~ Jorine (thanks for helping me get started with my essay, and calling my brother(AHEM!!!))

~ Shan Min (thanks for all the encouragement to get started=))

~ Shawn (thanks for all the encouragement to get started, and the warnings about how tough it's gonna be completing it!!!)

~ Tiffany (thanks for helping me get started with my essay, and almost finishing up for me:P)

Without you guys, I wouldn't have survived!!! >.<

First Love is ALWAYS SWEET=)

I tried to ask everyone a question today... Besides, I love doing surveys:) Though they're short, most of the time consisting of only ONE question, but still...

The question was 'How many ex-es have you had before?'...

Reason for the question? Well... I don't know... Just that I'm curious??? And I love doing surveys??? But now, I've regretted asking!!! :(

Purely cause I'm the youngest in our family consisting of Ing, Hugo, Johnson, Mark, Chen Yi, Jorine, Jia Chen, Tiffany, Shan Min, Wendy and me=) And I think I know pretty much know most of them now anyway=) And like, most of the people I have asked have like... Well... It just seems as though like I have the most ex-es!!! Sad case:(

But I mean, it's not such a big deal thing... And if you really think about it, all of them were pretty sad cases... The first was the longest, yet so young(like 11???), where no one could believe how that relationship could have lasted for almost 2 years!!! But like, that was probably the sweetest thing that could have ever happened to me!!! The first time we met was probably when we had this dance audition for Teacher's Day, where both of us met while performing in front of the judges, though we still didn't really know each other:( During our Primary 5 Camp, we were in the same group actually (The Group of Neptune - YEA!!! We won a trophy each for being the best cheer team=)), but I guess because the group consisted of like 20 people, so we never really knew each other back then... Fate probably brought us back together when the teachers love to group a guy and a girl to sit together, so that the guys won't be fooling around and the girls won't be chatting non-stop in classes... Therefore the first time we actually 'met' was in our chinese class, where he was sitting next to me... We rarely ever talked, but it was just that during my birthday, I gave him this pack of lollies where I practically give everyone one anyway, and we sorta got closer... Not in the dirty kind of way, but as in we started talking, and he wrote letters to me=) It's also funny how he would ask someone else to write the letters sometimes, just cause he said that his handwriting is heaps ugly... I'm not gonna comment on that, but it's just that it's heaps embarrassing when the whole level knows about the contents in the letter:P Yeap, there were loads of mushy stuff, indeed... I think we only started going out when he sorta wrote in the letter asking if I was willing to be his gf:) That was so sweet, though I have to say we never really went out together... I mean, we were SO YOUNG back then, all we ever did was go to the playground with a bunch of students after school and play(OMG, don't ask me why we did that!!!), chat on the phone the whole night(he rang!!!), and yea... We never really meet at school, because I was in the C class, and he was in the G class, so there's quite a distance to walk in between classrooms, though we're on the same storey... HEHE:P In fact, we actually went out this ever-once!!! It was a double date, and we went to the LIBRARY!?!?!? HOW COOL IS THAT??? I KNOW!!! But I guess after entering the library for 5 mins, we sorta decided it's not THAT cool anymore, so we left for the arcade!!! I sorta felt sorry for the other couple, because all my-first(J*****) did was play whatever games guys normally play, probably spent like $30, and stuffed all the things he could exchange with all the tickets to me, while the other couple practically got nothing!!!:P Oh, that was hilarious:) He's quite a nice guy actually; remembered him rushing out of the chinese classroom just to give me this really cute bear:) And there were actually plenty of onlookers at that time:P Soooooooooo embarrassing... LOL>.<


AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! >o<

P.S. YUP!!! I actually have it with me in Aussie:) Beside my bed:P

There are tons of other memories of him actually, remembered the time when we were playing at the playground near his house, and his older sis and gang came back from school and saw us, and I was so terrified... Well, her sis has this very fierce look, and when you're surrounded by like 5 older girls, and all the sis ask you was that do you like her bro, and that would you go out with him, it gets so awkward to the extent where you really don't know what to reply... But luckily J***** came to my rescue of course, by asking them not to 'disturb' me:P HEHE:P So sweet of him=) But he takes things very seriously at times as when this one time, my friends were totally playing a joke on him by forging my handwriting and writing a note to him by telling him I'm breaking up with him... I only knew that at night, but cause the home phone bill was heaps high, and my parents were fully mad, so I had to get my friends to call him to tell him that it's not true, but he wouldn't listen... So in the end I had to call him personally, risking the fact that my parents will kill me, and only then his voice had brighten up... He's such a kid!!! But he likes to joke around, and one particular not-funny joke he said to me was: "What is sink water bash???" Answer: 陈水扁... YUP!!! VERY LAME INDEED!!! And he's a silly guy, charged his phone for apparently a week until the mobile literally went dead(EXPLODED?!?!?!), no idea... Don't know if that's true, but yea... Remember this one time we went to Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve for a school trip (OMG!!! I realised that school trips always consist of Zoo, Science Centre, Reserve Parks...), and this bug got into J*****'s top, so he was like jumping around & up & down, god it was hilarious:P

I guess good things will have to come to an end afterall, and though I was the one to make that choice to break up with him, it was definitely a tough decision I have made where I deeply regretted, since I was still so in love with him after 1 year on... But just because after going out with him for 2 years, there's no way I wouldn't know where the path is leading us when we had 6 choices to place for our secondary schools, and my 1st-6th choice was literally his 6th-1st choice:( Since FATE wasn't bringing us any closer, plus knowing his personality too well, might as well 长痛不如短痛:( I can't deny the fact that when I got to secondary school, the same school as his sis, I was still thinking of him so much... The first time meeting him after graduating from primary school was when me and my friends were at MacDonalds at 888 Plaza(the shops where my house is situated nearby), and him and his gang came in, and we were both so shocked to see each other... It was such an awkward moment, but he probably told his friends something, as his friends then came over and asked for "Celia", so yea... A second time was when we were at KFC, him and his friends came in again, but we were sitting in the opposite directions anyway, so yea... Not fated, but I was god damn happy to see him=) He still looks the same from the past, but unfortunately there was no way to be back together anymore:'( I know that since I tried speaking to him on the phone, and after speaking for two hours on the phone, I realised that I love him, the old him... Time has changed both of us, we love the old us, not the one that time has changed during the time we were separated... Getting back together was a dream I had always wanted to come true ever since I broke up with him, but the phone call had really made me realised that I should move on with life, since living in the past ain't getting me anywhere, really... But there's this song by Jay Chou called '安静', it reminds me of J***** so much, I was told by a friend that this song resembles our situation anyway...

The second one was actually a rather sweet guy. If not for his possessiveness, we would probably have lasted longer than what we had... He would copy out love song lyrics for me, one particular one that I remembered was '晴天' by Jay Chou, and that was the first song lyrics he gave to me, therefore whenever I hear that song, it reminds me of him. He would also write notes to me constantly, the letters he wrote to me would seriously pile up into a mountain!!! God I remember how writing letters to someone else was such a fad in secondary school... When he was pursuing me, he asked me out to the movies with him and his friends, but it was really heaps awkward going out with him, plus with his friends as well!!! But when we started going out, he requested me to watch him play at his soccer match after school one day, and cause my friends and I were bored, we decided to go and watch. Moreover, my friend's crush was this other guy playing in the group, so might as well... W***** sure was elated to see me, though I only went there cause I was bored, not cause I wanna see him!!! He then texted me after and kept teling me how happy he was, since I was there and he won his match... W***** isn't that bad a person really, except I'm a person who simply loves freedom, and he's a person who seriously loves to follow me everywhere I go, which seriously made me feel so limited... (So maybe I would just say that I'm sorry to break his heart, but... I LOVE MY FREEDOM MORE THAN HIM!!!)

* And maybe I should also confess that I still love the first though I'm dating the second:P The only main reason I dated him was to forget the first?!?!?! But I did like him too!!! Just not as much as the first, I guess???

TAUREANS will never forget their First Love ma...

This once, when I normally go to the MacDonalds with my friends near my house after school, after his class, he texted me asking me where I was. I didn't think telling him my whereabouts was such a problem, until he said he was coming. But I was like "No, I’m going home now", but he still rode his bicycle all the way just to see me… In the end, I had to get all my friends to shoo him away, and make sure I got home, then they can go... I mean, persistence to some extent is acceptable, but I like FREEDOM, following me and asking me what I do every single moment is just not on!!! And he always has his gang to 'follow' me around everywhere I go, as if they were my bodyguards!!! FREEDOM PLEASE?!?!?! So obviously not soon after, I had to break up with him, cause I really couldn't stand it anymore... But for some very random reason, I remember patching up with him... No idea how did that happen, but I still remember after breaking up the second time, when I told him in the letter that I'm very very tired of being in this relationship, he wasn't that a gentleman anymore... He was such an A**H***!!! I kept getting anonymous calls from people… Then I realised it was from a primary school kid, and he was calling because he saw my mobile number on a playground near our school, and very nasty things were written on it. The guy only said that it would be much better if I had gone to see it myself, than him telling me on the phone, so of course I got angry and out of curiosity, one day after school we went to the playground and see what’s actually on it… It was more like those things you will only write if that person has offended you big time… You will not do it to your friends as a joke, really… It was like ‘call this person(my name) for sex, followed by my number’, somewhere along those lines anyway… WTH??? To what degree of hate does he have in place for me??? Anyways, for revenge, me and my friends wrote his name and number, and did the same thing back to him of course!!! That's why you should never ever bully a girl!!! Since then, we met in school, but never see each other face to face, and never ever talk, EVER!!! Though I guess we did talk when I went back to Singapore for holiday at the end of 2007... I guess let bygones be bygones??? Lol...

The third??? Hmmn... Well, I only remember we started talking when I had this mobile phone that was 'handed out free'(when you sign a two year contract with M1) in KFC, and he(R***) started playing with it all the time during break time... We used to just sit in class together while he will play on my phone... Can't really remember how we started, but I remember I was really sick, and he took care of me, chat to and text me everyday, asking me to go see doctor, he was so damn sweet… We didn’t get together at first purely because he knows that W***** likes me, but he never knew that W***** and I had got together, but broken up, and they were sorta friends in a way, and if word gets spread out, the whole situation would not be THAT nice anymore… But anyways, I told him about everything, and everything was cool... Except for the fact that we in fact had two very different groups of friends, and we never talk to each other on the phone etc as much as I did for J***** especially, and though we were in the same class, we seldom talk really, and as our relationship got more and more distant, he also got closer with this other girl in his group... And since I sorta knew I had to leave for studies abroad anyway, we sorta just had an amicable breakup, with no one getting seriously hurt, although I did love him quite a bit...:'(

In a nutshell, all my relationships didn't end up very well, of course, otherwise I wouldn't be single?!?!?! LOL... As much as it seems like I had the most ex-es, they still ended up pretty badly anyway... So having more or less ex-es would mean nothing other than more or less hurt accrued throughout the ending of the relationships:'( And whether or not more relationships would accumulate more distress is another point that could be argued, and I'm not gonna do it here on this post as I think it's filled with enough things to be read... People may say that I'm more 'experienced' now, but this experience comes with agony and sorrow... Was it worth the exchange??? Debatable really...

Busy Day??? Or not???

Today was such a BUSY day:(

I HATE TUESDAYS!!! It's like I have 4 hours of lectures, 1 maths lab and 1 OB tutorial:(

Compared to students doing courses like Engineering, my timetable is probably like nothing... But I'm still a Commerce student afterall - just doing a stupid maths unit!!!

Actually,come to think of it, maybe today wasn't such a BUSY day, but a funny day instead:P During the OB lecture, I was told that this week's OB tutorial is the same as any others, with the attendence compulsory, just that it's a session for questions & answers for our essay assignment... However, last week when we were all about to leave, our tutor said that we didn't have to come!!! So after the lecture, we went to ask Kerrie, and she said that it's only Week 9 where attendence is not complusory... So then my plan to go to Jorine's to eat EasyMac at 11am is dashed!!! Anyways, went to crash Shan & Wendy's macroecons lecture, and went to the Old Pharm for tute... BUT NO ONE WAS THERE!!! Only Andy, Soya and I were standing there, trying to figure out what to do... But anyways, Soya and I decided to leave in the end, and apparently when Andy went back to the class to get his bag, the tutor was there, so I guess he was stuck there then:P HEHE=)

Went to Jorine's for EasyMac, but due to Jorine's expertise in cooking the maccoroni, Chen Yi and I had to stand there to stir the thing for at least 30 mins!!! Guess it wasn't that EASY to prepare afterall!!!

Our FINAL product=) APPLAUSE!!!

Went to MO lecture from 3pm - 4.45pm ( NO, Tiffany, no matter what time he allows us to leave, it is never early enough!!!) and Jorine, if you're reading this, all THANKS to you, I had to stay in Uni til 6.30pm, and go home with my brother!!! SIGH *shakes head*

*For those who didn't know, Jorine tried ringing my brother to ask him to wait for me to go home. When it fails, she asked Tiffany to snatch the phone from me. When all else fails, she went to the extent of calling Ing and asked for my brother's number. Then she rang him personally to ask him to wait for me to go home!!!

OH!!! And by the way Jorine, stamps DO NOT have an expiry date!!! So you can take your time to send letters=)

Olympics, Aussie Idol, & MO Essay...

Today's the end of The Olympics, the start of the Aussie Idol, and maybe also the start of my MO Essay???

I know it's seriously time for me to start my essay, but I keep on getting distracted by my surroundings and of course-my laptop!!! Hehe>.< color="#66ffff">
I wanna watch Aussie Idol!!! The beginning are always hilarious, with all the auditions and people doing funny things-as usual:P

At the same time, the end of The Olympics is also on... I'm seriously not a big fan of sports, thus I don't really care about The Olympics... Since it's once in four years, and it's my first Olympics in Australia, so I watched the opening:) But I really don't think I will watch the ending since there's still so much stuff waiting for me to complete!!!

Endnote: Maybe The Olympics will be so much fun-ner to watch if Australia wasn't so keen on just trying to show The Australian Sporting Team constantly...

I need to WAKE UP!!!

I'm so BUSY recently!!!

Haven't got the time to update my blog-.-
But this song is currently stuck in my head :p


The Veronicas - "Someone Wake Me Up"

We got the same friends
We're gonna have to see each other eventually
So won't you tell me how we're gonna deal with that
(how we're gonna deal with that, how we're gonna deal with that)
My CD's are at your place
And you know I'm gonna have to pick 'em up
So won't you tell me how we're gonna deal with that
(how we're gonna deal with that, how we're gonna deal with that)

Even though it was mutual, it still kills inside'
Cause for so long, how I've been defined

Chorus:
It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)

I still have your old shirt
You know the one I said I'd thrown away?
I put it on when I went to bed last night
(I went to bed last night, I went to bed last night)
Baby, is this where our story ends
When I turn out the light
Fantasy and reality fight

Chorus:
It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)

Someone wake me up

Even though it's over now, it still kills inside '
Cause for so long you have been my life

(Someone wake me up, someone wake me up)

Chorus:
It feels just like I'm going crazy
I guess that this is breaking up
And now not even you can save me
Will someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)
Never thought that we'd go under
I guess we won't be making up
And if this is a dream I wonder,
Could someone wake me up?
(Someone wake me up)

oh, baby you were my first time
I will always keep you inside

(Someone wake me up, someone wake me up)
Someone wake me up
(Someone wake me up, someone wake me up)
Someone wake me up

*reminds me of you:(

I can't cook for NUTS!!!

Recently, ever since Uni started anyway, I've been pretty damn busy (though I have to admit that more than half the time was spent on MSN chatting to friends :p), I really can't be bothered cooking. As much as I love cooking (thank god I'm not burning down the kitchen!!!), I can't cook!!! And unfortunately, one thing I have to do everyday is practically COOK!!! Therefore, an excellent idea would be dumping everything I can find in the fridge into the pot;) Can you even believe that? Well, let's see...

All my years of education had gone to waste!!!

Ok... People who have known me well would know that Maths has been my favourite subject... I won't say that it was during my years of primary school, but throughout sec 1 and 2, it definitely has been a great part of my life. I remember the first few weeks of my life upon entering Carine SHS in 2005 as Year 10 was just horrible!!! In Maths, I had no idea what a freaking gradient and y-intercept was... And apparently, it's revision from Year 9, but for God's sake, I wasn't even here for Year 9, and we weren't taught that back in EVG... Anyways, that didn't stop me from liking Maths, and it was all cool for Year 11 and 12 as I went on to do double-maths:)

So upon entering Uni, we had to pick 4 units for the semester... As I didn't know what majors I am doing, but I'm quite certain in choosing between Finance, Management and/or Accounting, thus the student advisor said that I should do double-maths since it's a prerequisite for Quantitative Finance. Since I am already doing Financial Accounting and Organisational Behaviour (management), I thought to myself 'might as well just do double-maths to get an experience of what each major is about'... So units were picked, and I'm all happy:) But due to everyone freaking me out about how doing double-maths is a definite NO-NO situation (yea, thanks to Sze Howe and Sharon and many others...), I decided to drop MATH1010 finally, thus doing MATH1020 only... So now I truly think that I have lessen my workload, and this sem is gonna be alright for me... Little did I know that it was only the beginning of a nightmare!!!

First day into the Alexander Lecture Theatre filled with more than 200 people at 9am, it was already quite a bit to take in, considering we only had like 14 people in our BCC class??? Hmmn... Lol... Anyways, after the lecturer went on for quite a bit, he moved on to the so-called revision questions which is the main point of this post... Just one question he wrote on the board was as follows:
l2x - 1l + x + 3 ≥ l3x + 2l . To think that someone like me who was so passionate about Maths, and even did Calculus in Year 12, had no idea how to do this freaking question, just due to the fact that I haven't got a Graphics Calculator!!!

What have I done to myself here? Was my education all these years gone to waste, especially my 3 years of High School here, since all I had depended on was a $100+ Graphics Calculator!!! Sigh...

endnote: reliance on something is a bad thing at times:(

Is it just me who's finding Uni not as easy as what everyone had pictured it to be?

Just before I knew it, Uni had started...

Orientation Week was boring as usual, since I had already been to it before in February... All of the Ice-breakers and tours around Uni wasn't something new for me... Though I do have to admit that Old Pharmacology wasn't that easy to find... The Orientation Week went past quickly without O'Day(why not???), and there it was the first day of Uni...

it wasn't that bad, though it wasn't that good either... :P